2010年6月4日 星期五

Puppy Love

#2010-0604

Puppy Love
-- by Mookoo Liang in March 2003

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Our son kept asking for a pet dog. I had turned down his proposal many times, but he had turned to his mother and begged over and over again.

"Mommy, my classmate Wang Kun has a puppy." He raised the issue the other evening, "A white dog, you know, so small and cute! Wang Kun lets me play with it sometimes, but I really want to have one."

"There, Tony, you are a good boy. You know what papa has said. He has told you that . . ."

"But why did Wang Kun's papa buy him a puppy? Not only Wang Kun, but Zhang Xiulan also has a pet dog. And Lin Yong has one too." Tony was angry. The nine-year-old boy seemed to be less docile than before.

"Well, the situations might be different," said my wife with patience. "Papa is right. We are living in such a neighborhood. If we had a dog . . . Well, I don’t know, maybe you should go and discuss the problem with your father tonight."

My wife Jean hesitated at times, especially when our son asked for something to play with. She said to me in private that we should give our little boy a few more toys, because he was our only child. As you can imagine, we had bought him lots of toys: colorful Lego blocks, stylish model cars, model ships, model planes, and the fancy robots Space Fighter and Wudi Tiejin'gang.

Once we bought him a set of Barbie dolls. We were pleased to see our "naughty boy" play with the girl dolls. When he dressed them, he acted as if he were taking care of real babies. Jean and I smiled at each other. We agreed that our boy would become a gentle, kind-hearted man someday.

But our boy played with the Barbie dolls no more. He didn't even care about his other expensive toys. He wanted a pet dog now.

This caused a lot of trouble for his mother, my wife. Unlike me, Jean was very afraid of dogs. She thought all kinds of dogs were wild animals and that all wild animals would possibly bite you when irritated. She once said to me, "You don't know when it would be irritated, do you?"

"Oh, that's not very true." I shared with her my pleasant experience of raising dogs. And I added, "Once a dog becomes a member of this family, it will remain friendly and faithful to you and me, not to mention our boy."

Our little boy was only nine. And a pre-teenage boy is more or less like a puppy himself. Just as the English word "kid" (originally referring to a young goat) is used to mean a child, many Chinese parents refer to their sons as xiao quan, literally meaning "small dog."

So I was sure that if we had given our little Tony a puppy, he and the animal would have become the best companions in the world. And he might have shown it to Wang Kun, to Zhang Xiulan, to Lin Yong, and to other classmates that possessed the similar pets.

But I refused to allow him a pet dog. A pet dog would certainly bring great fun to my little boy, and I myself had liked dogs very much when I was young; however, I was strongly against the idea of having such an animal in our present home.

I rejected Tony's suggestion for three reasons. First, as we were living in a quiet neighborhood, a barking animal would make too much noise. Second, young children living near us often came and played in front of our house. "If we let our dog run loose," I asked my son on purpose, "can we be sure that it won't hurt any of them? Do we have to confine our puppy by tying it up? Or by putting it in the cage most of the time?"

The point was that nobody would be able to keep an eye on our pet in the daytime. Except for weekends and holidays, Tony had to go to school and his parents to work.

So the third reason was the most important: our busy lifestyle made it impossible for us to take good care of a dog. "Who will take responsibility for feeding and cleaning our dog?" I seriously stated, "Feeding a dog may be easy, washing it could be fun, but cleaning the dog cage every morning and every evening will be a heavy burden --- an extremely heavy burden!"

That night the members of my family had another long talk about the possibility (or difficulty) of having a pet dog. In the end, when it was almost midnight, my solemn explanation seemed to have convinced (or frightened) our "innocent boy." He stood up from the living-room chair, looking at me and at his mother for a few moments. Then, he walked slowly toward his bedroom, in silence.

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In the following week, I was busy with my job and Tony didn't bother me with his demand. That is, I didn't hear his complaint. I was pleased to have a "sensible child" --- who is, by my definition, very understanding and considerate toward his parents.

When the weekend came, I took Jean and Tony back to Shui Changliu, my home village, where my parents lived. Jean, who formerly had hated to stay in a remote place for the night, was now much more interested in that small village in the mountains. And it goes without saying that Tony liked to re-visit the place very much. He had lived there with his grandparents until he was three years old.

On the way to Shui Changliu, I drove fast but with care while Jean and Tony chatted aimlessly in high spirits. The beautiful scenes on both sides of the winding road in the mountains attracted our common attention, though.

We passed by many different kinds of trees, taller and shorter ones, and we saw birds in various colors flying here and there. Jean and Tony began to talk about plants, birds, and animals.

"What would you like to be, mommy?" Tony asked Jean. "A bird or a four-legged animal?"

"Well, I . . . I'd rather be a human being!" she replied.

"Oh, no! Please just choose from the two," he insisted. "If there were only two options, which would you pick to be?"

"How about you?" I interrupted, "What do YOU want to be, Tony? Do you like to be a monkey? . . . Ha, ha, ha, you are either a boy monkey or a monkey boy!"

Actually we were chatting in Mandarin mixed with the Taiwanese dialect. But I said "boy monkey" and "monkey boy" in English. I guessed our son couldn't tell the difference between the two phrases yet, though he had already learned the English words "boy" and "monkey."

But Tony protested, "No, no, no. I am neither! If I were a kao-gin-a ('monkey child' in Taiwanese), both of you would be kao-tua-lang (monkey adults)!"

Jean and I burst into laughter. We often teased our little child this way. Yet quite often we were made laugh by the "bright boy" fighting back.

I thought of those years when Tony was attending a kindergarten near our house. Tony was three years old when Jean and I took him out of the mountain village Shui Changliu. Before that, Jean had worked full-time in her hometown, near the sea; and I had gone to National Taiwan Normal University, in Taipei, for further study. That's why I had asked my parents to help look after my child.

When looking after Tony ourselves, Jean and I tried to teach him many things. This was how I taught him the Arabic numerals for the first time:

I pointed at 1, 2, 3, 4 with my finger and wanted him to repeat after me, "yi, er, san, si." He just stared at me without saying anything. I instructed him again. He kept silent, staring at me in the same way. I tried a third and a fourth time and he still gave no response. All of a sudden, I became very angry and upset, thinking that I had got a "terribly stupid child."

Then, something interesting happened. Returning from the kindergarten one afternoon, Tony told us he had been taught the lesson about "yachi baojian" (tooth-caring). He asked with a mischievous grin, "Why is the tooth related to the sword? Can the tooth be used to make a sword?" What a funny boy! He must have misunderstood the term baojian (meaning "health care") for another baojian (meaning "sword").

Our little boy was creative in language. As soon as he learned the Chinese characters 人 (ren for "man, person, or human being"), 大 (da for "big, large, huge, or great"), 小 (xiao for "small, tiny"), and 中 (zhong for "middle, center"), he started to regard me as 大人, himself as 小人 and his mother as 中人.

Yes, as an adult, I could be called 大人 in Chinese. But "children" should be 小孩 (xiao-hai) instead of 小人 (xiao-ren), because the latter suggests "a villain" or "a mean person."

Every time Jean and I heard Tony call himself 小人, we would burst out laughing. However, I thought he was very smart to call his mother 中人 --- He might have defined 中人 as "a person taller (bigger) than 小人 and shorter (smaller) than 大人." In actual fact, 中人 (zhong-ren) means "middleman, mediator, or intermediary" in the Chinese language.

Whenever Tony found it hard to ask me for something, he would ask his mother for help. And his mother, or my wife, usually acted as an intermediary. For instance, during the previous weeks, he had failed to persuade me into buying him a puppy. He turned to "plead" with Jean, even though she was afraid of dogs!

As Jean, Tony, and I were in the same car heading for Shui Changliu, I couldn't help thinking about the first few years after our little boy came to us from my parents' farm.

He had been growing well. Now, at the age of nine, he remained our only xiao quan (sometimes as obedient as a puppy) and our unique kao-gin-a (sometimes as mischievous as a monkey).

I slowed the car and began to teach our son a Taiwanese tongue twister. The tongue twister went like this: Kao pua-luo kao, kao t’e kao-a lai kao kao. Si kao kao kao? Ya si kao kao kao? [That means: A dog fell into the ditch and a monkey came with a hook. Is the monkey hooking the dog? Or is the dog hooking the monkey?]

You know, in the Taiwanese dialect, "dog" is pronounced kao with a falling tone while "monkey" is kao with a falling-rising tone. The noun "ditch" is kao with a high level tone, sounding just like the verb "to hook."

Jean repeated the tongue twister so Tony could say it correctly and quickly. The mother and son were very excited all the way, and so was I.

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One night, Jean and I talked about our son's needs again.

"I hate dogs myself," she admitted. "But, as you can see, our son likes the animal so much. How about giving him a chance? He's promised to take good care of the pet."

"Well, you know what the problems will be, don't you?" I repeated my three reasons for not allowing him a pet dog. But we both felt that our "clever and well-behaved boy" deserved a good pet, anyway.

I suggested we buy him a fish. Setting up an aquarium in the living room would cost us too much money, and we had never learned how to deal with those slippery water creatures as pets. Therefore, Jean and I decided to simply buy a dou-yu for our son.

A dou-yu is a "fighting fish." Like a gamecock, it is a particular kind of fish that looks cute but is ready to fight all the time. You'd better separate two dou-yu in two different containers; otherwise, they are likely to fight until either is killed.

However, our son did not like the single dou-yu we bought him. The brave fish, which we had put in a beautiful wine glass, died for no reason within a week.

Several days later, Jean came home with a birdcage. "Oh, five white birds!" cried Tony. He and I were curious about the birds. Jean said they were called bai-wen-niao. The birds, together with the birdcage, were given to us by Jean's co-worker Miss Luo, who had kept them as pets.

At first, we placed the birdcage at the living room. Tony was attracted to these new pets. He spent a lot of time watching them. The five birds were very much alike in size, shape and color. But, to my surprise, Tony was able to distinguish them.

I suddenly thought of my own childhood. Unlike Tony, I had brothers and sisters. Together with our parents, we lived in a solitary farmhouse in the mountains. We had a cow, two dogs, and three or four pigs; we also raised chickens, ducks, and geese.

It was pretty easy for us to distinguish those farmyard birds. We would name each of the fowls, divide them into groups, and then claim the "ownership" of one of the groups. That means, when "your bird" or "my bird" was killed for food, the feathers plucked from it belonged to you or me; by selling the plucked feathers, the "owner" could get some "pocket money."

Now Tony had much more "pocket money" than I used to have. He even possessed some very expensive toys. Was he not lucky enough to have these white birds, bai-wen-niao?

For the first two weeks, we paid close attention to the five pet birds. We moved the birdcage to the front yard in the morning, and took it back into the living room in the evening. Then we became less and less careful. Finally, about one month later, the birdcage was hung on the wall of our back balcony. We did not approach the birds except for feeding them.

Hanging on the balcony day and night, the birdcage was not taken indoors any longer. One night, the weather became unusually cold. One of the five birds was found dead the next morning. Two days later, the weather being okay, two more were killed and another one was badly injured.

Wondering if there had been a killer cat or something, I asked Jean and Tony, "Have you heard anything strange in the night?"

"No," they replied. "Recently we haven’t heard any meow at night --- What if the killer came in the day?"

The injured bird died very soon. We felt sorry for all the dead birds, and also for the last one that was alive. "It is a lonely bird!" said Tony. "We should have taken better care of its brothers and sisters." However, to our great disappointment, this last bai-wen-niao disappeared the next day.

Where was the missing bird? The door of the cage shut well. Checking the wooden birdcage carefully, I found that our last pet bird died on the wall of the cage. The dead body stuck in the corner near the cage-roof. Some nails were so long that their pointed ends came out from inside the cage; unfortunately, the victim had rushed into one of the long nails.

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Were we destined never to have any pet again? Tony was now more and more interested in dogs. He wished that he had got a lovely puppy.

One Saturday, I took Tony and Jean back to Dajia, Jean's hometown, where her parents lived. Now our son really wanted a puppy, Jean and I thought it necessary to take his "puppy love" more seriously. Jean learned from her parents that a distant relative of ours had just got some baby dogs. And I promised to get our xiao quan a nice doggy, at last.

Due to our xiao quan, Jean changed her mind about dogs though she had never gotten used to getting close to such animals before. On the other hand, I made up my mind to help look after the future pet dog. But Tony was the happiest person in the car when we were all heading for Dajia.

That afternoon, Jean and I enjoyed ourselves at home drinking tea and chatting with my parents-in-law while Tony followed his cousins to the relative's house to pick a puppy. In the evening, the children did not bring any puppy home, saying that the baby dogs were too small to be independent.

"The puppies still need their mother's milk!" said the children (Jean's nephews and nieces).

"What color are the puppies?" I asked Tony, "Have you found your favorite one?"

"Yes, I like the black one best. The other puppies are either yellowish brown or spotted brown; I mean, brown spotted with white."

"Is the black puppy male or female?" I asked.

"Oh, I'm not sure," replied Tony.

I told Tony to remember this: The male dog would be much better than the female. Jean laughed at me, asking whether I was a "male chauvinist."

On the way home from Dajia, we chatted cheerfully in the car, and our conversation was all related to the pet dog. We talked and talked and talked. But, first of all, we felt we needed a good name for our puppy:

"How about calling it Lai-Fu?" "No!"

Although Lai-Fu sounds like either 來福 (Here comes good luck) or 來富 (Here comes wealth) in Mandarin, we thought we could possibly find a better name.

"How about Kulo?" "No!"

Many black dogs had been given such a name because "kulo" means "black" in Japanese. We didn't really like a name that was so common. What's worse, "kulo" sounds like the Chinese phrase "ku le," which means "(somebody) is crying."

"How about Xiao Hei?" "Come on, be a little creative!"

Such names as Xiao Hei, Xiao Huang, and Xiao Bai are based on colors: denoting black, yellow, and white respectively. I said, "It's a risky thing to call your dog Little Bai or Little Huang. If a Mr. Bai or Miss Huang comes to visit while your dog is angrily barking at him or her, what can you do? Can you yell at your dog by using its name?" Obviously, it is impolite to yell out "Get away, Little Black" when an honorable uncle named Mr. Black comes to visit.

After a long discussion, we almost reached agreement on the name 黑皮 (Hei-Pi, literally meaning "black skin"). Suddenly Tony shouted out, "Happy!" And Jean said happily, "Oh, yes, let's call him Happy!" I agreed with them, hoping that the little animal would bring this family a lot of happiness.

I thought of my childhood again. Living at a solitary house in the mountains, we did need one or two dogs to help us. One day, I heard our dog Vu-Lyung barking loudly in the nearby fields.

[By the way, Vu-Lyung is the Hakka pronunciation of 烏龍, literally meaning "black dragon." This name is pronounced as Wu-Long in Mandarin, and as Oo-Liong in Taiwanese. My "mother tongue" is Taiwanese, but my father actually speaks Hakka more often. It's a pity that neither my wife nor my son understands the Hakka dialect, which I regard as my "father tongue"!]

Rushing up and down the terraced fields at breakneck speed, our dog Vu-Lyung seemed to have found something unusual. Was he chasing a rat or something? My father and my cousins, who happened to be working nearby, heard the barks and joined in hunting from all sides. Before long, they saw Vu-Lyung carrying the game in his mouth. It was not an ugly rat, but a big brown hare!

How exciting it was! The rare game was cooked immediately. When eating the delicious food, we shared some with our real hero, Vu-Lyung.

Now, two weeks after Tony saw Happy for the first time, I took him and his mother back to Dajia again. My father-in-law went together with Tony on a bicycle to fetch the puppy. When they came back, I was surprised that they brought a brown puppy instead of the black one.

"Grandpa says this puppy looks stronger than any others," explained Tony.

"Well, grandpa is right. It looks healthy, and pretty as well." Jean said.

I asked if we should change the dog's name. This brown dog definitely did not have hei pi (black skin). But Jean and Tony said they would rather call it Happy.

We came home from Dajia next morning, together with Happy, very happily.

Happy was a pretty dog indeed. However, it was as timid as a mouse. When it was taken out of the carton (used as its movable bed), it quickly hid itself under the living-room chairs. It trembled seeing so many strangers around. All of us (including our next-door neighbors) were interested in such a newcomer. But Tony was obviously the first one that made friends with it.

Tony started to "walk the dog"! He led the lovely puppy out of our front yard, with the leash in his hand. More and more people saw it in this neighborhood. "What a pretty dog!" they said, with a smile. But, seeing other dogs approaching, this timid doggy always tried to hide, sometimes even creeping under a car on the roadside.

One day, after walking the dog, he came to me disappointedly, saying, "Aunt Lin (our neighbor) held Happy high up with her hands. She believed that Happy was a she-dog, not a he-dog. Well, I don't know, do you think so?" I examined our pet at once. To my surprise, Aunt Lin was right.

Jean was also surprised by the fact, but she said, "No wonder Happy has been so shy!"

"But it is still a good dog, isn't it?" Tony held the puppy closer.

"Sure!" I commented, "A mishap could be a beautiful mistake sometimes."

After we brought Miss Happy home, our life became more interesting. We enjoyed walking our dog in the neighboring woods, and we liked to talk about (and talk to) her.

Of course we spoke highly of our dog. When our neighbor "Miss Show-off" compared Happy with her German shepherd, Jean and I comforted Tony, saying, "The females of the species should be more gentle than the males; you know, our Happy is a graceful lady!"

But the graceful Mis(s) Hap(py) also brought us lots of "extra work" to do --- Our everyday chores included providing the dog with food and water, cleaning the dog cage, and dealing with the dog droppings. Fortunately, we had a responsible son, who kept his promise, doing most of these routine jobs.

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I had almost forgot the following episode when Jean mentioned it again the other day:

When our son was still a second grader, he didn't have any classes to attend in the afternoon. He walked home at noon and, as a "latchkey child," he usually stayed home alone until Jean and I returned from our workplaces in the evening. [By the way, our society seemed much safer in those years, so there were many "latchkey children" who carried their front-door keys with them when going to school.]

One afternoon, our seven-year-old boy went riding his mini-cycle in the park. He saw a tiny puppy there, and thought it was looking for its mommy. But where was the mother dog? He began to play with this poor thing.

Then he brought the puppy home, fed it with milk, washed it in the bathroom, and tried to dry it with towels. Finally, seeing it trembling, he took it to his bedroom and covered it with the blanket. He took it to our bedroom too. Anyway, he tried his most to protect (or rescue) the little animal that had lost its way.

When Jean came home from work in the evening, Mrs. Xie (our next-door neighbor) said to her, "I heard your son talking to somebody all afternoon. Perhaps he had invited his classmates home, but I didn't see anyone!"

Very soon Jean found out the truth. Seeing the dog's hairs all over the floor and in the beds, she got so furious that she spanked him on the bottom. She said angrily, "I'm exhausted after a very busy day. How come you couldn't be a little bit considerate to your mother? Did you want to tire me out? . . ." It took Jean quite a long time to clean up the house from top to bottom.

This was one of the particular episodes in our family life. Jean told me that she regretted punishing Tony for what had happened that afternoon. If she had not been so tired after work, she might have been more tolerant --- She wished she had modified her words so as not to hurt the boy's tender feelings!

"There, my dear, you have been a very good mother! Our son always understands that." I said to Jean, "But tell me, what happened to the little puppy afterward?"

"Don't you remember? You told Tony that the mother dog must have been looking for her baby, and you wanted him to take the puppy back to the park."

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Happy had brought us lots of happiness. Tony was happy most of the time, Jean was happier and busier than before, and I was busy with my business and happy about Happy too.

Nevertheless, just as the Chinese saying goes: Hua wu bai ri hong; ren wu qian ri hao (= No flowers remain red for a hundred days; no men remain fine for a thousand days), trouble was creeping silently up on our little pet. It was a terrible skin disease, making Happy lose her true colors in just a few days!

We took Happy to a veterinarian. The vet suggested that we use a certain kind of shower gel produced especially for dogs. He also advised that a dog should not eat too much, and that they shouldn't be given human food such as roast pork, salted fish, and scrambled eggs. "Dogs will be healthy if they are fed with dog biscuits only," he said.

"She's been living on dog biscuits for months," I said, placing Happy on the stainless steel operation table. The vet examined her from head to tail. Then he applied some medical liquid and ointment to the diseased parts of the skin. Before saying goodbye to the vet, we got the recommended shower gel at that very clinic, hoping Happy's skin disease would be cured soon.

In the following weeks, we took Happy to the veterinarian regularly, as we were told. Gradually, her skin became better, and her fur more beautiful.

But another problem came along. One day, Tony was confused about the blood drops on the living-room floor. Jean told him that Happy had been "growing up." "Lock her in the cage for a couple of days," Jean urged. "Don't let her mess up our home." That week, there seemed to be more "wild he-dogs" trying eagerly to get close to our Happy.

Jean and I discussed what to do with Happy. We learned that some female dogs had been sent to a vet hospital --- for a particular operation! And we also heard that some cruel owners had their pet dogs' vocal cords partly removed, so as to reduce the barking noises!

We decided not to give our pet any "unnecessary" operations. Tony said to us, "A dog that cannot bark is a poor dog!"

Then, about two months later, Happy got the serious skin disease again. In spite of busy careers in the daytime, Jean and I were compelled to take her to the vet after supper. Tony accompanied us in the car, helping with the dog carton in the back seat.

The vet gave Happy a shot of antibiotics or something else every other night. When I put her on the vet's operation table again, she didn't try to escape, but sat there helplessly, with her legs trembling. "Don't be afraid," Tony whispered at the dog's ear. Then, one evening, he suddenly cried out, "Look, she's so afraid that she has tears in her eyes!" It was true. A teardrop was seen falling out of the dog's eye.

We did all the veterinarian had told us to do, but this incurable disease kept troubling us for a long period of time.

Now Happy had caused so much trouble to this family, the 大人 (da-ren) and 中人 (zhong-ren) began to make a secret plan: In order NOT to hurt the innocent, kind-hearted 小人 (xiao-ren) in any respect, the plan was called "Freedom Act" instead of "Abandonment."

Jean said with great anxiety, "Tony will be very, very angry and sad if we give Happy up. How can we put her away without giving any reason?"

I was very anxious too. "We must give him a convincing explanation, anyway." I said, "It seems that this ill dog is going to be sick forever. What if its skin disease does harm to our son? If the situation goes from bad to worse, . . . well, seeing a pet dog die will do a little boy no good."

Suddenly I thought of my childhood again. One day, while our parents were both out, we children played together in the front yard. We heard a dog barking loudly high up on the hill, and we recognized the dog at once: It was our dog (I don't remember its name) crying with pain and running back home as fast as it could.

No sooner had it got home than it fell to the ground just under the eaves of our house. We children squatted down and watched its body and legs shaking uncontrollably; finally, it died.

Later on, we were told that our dog had loved our home so much that it would like to die home after it was poisoned. However, seeing the course of its death was by no means a pleasant experience.

So Jean and I should not let Tony see Happy die. Nor should we let him touch a pet with such diseased skin. We gave him some convincing excuses, saying that we were not deserting Happy, but trying to set her free.

This was our story: As we were either at work or at school, we couldn't afford to walk our dog in the daytime. And because our dog was confined to having little exercise, she fell ill easily. Now we wanted to make her strong again. Why didn't we give her a new environment so that she could live happily there?

"Where is she supposed to go?" asked Tony.

"Somewhere in the country . . . Well, we'll figure it out tomorrow morning." I suggested that we go to bed right then. Anyway, Jean and I had made an acceptable start. And it was Sunday the next day, when we would be able to carry our sick dog to a faraway place, a place that was truly suitable for Happy.

That night, none of us had a sound sleep. We all got up early the next morning. Tony confessed that he felt so sorry for Happy; Jean suggested that we should cancel our "Act of Freedom"; I said I would go jogging for a while in the school nearby. O Lord Jesus, have mercy on us!

Jean, Tony, and I encouraged one another: We should, and we want to, take better care of our pet dog, no matter how busy and how tired we would be.

Another month passed. To our great disappointment, the miserable situation was not improving. On the contrary, Happy's skin disease became even worse, and her beautiful fur was completely gone. The veterinarian had tried various kinds of medicine, but he failed to put the horrible thing right.

Once again, Jean and I thought of the Act of Freedom. We held another "family conference" on Saturday night. We passed the resolution that Happy be sent away. This time we made up our mind to carry out our "sensible resolution" without feeling any regret.

"But where shall we see her off?" asked Tony.

"Well, maybe we can take her to Shui Changliu, or somewhere else in the mountains. We'll discuss that tomorrow morning." I urged Tony to go to bed right away. Tony walked slowly toward his bedroom, Jean and I toward ours.

O dear Lord, have mercy on us! The same thing happened again. None of us had a good sleep. We all felt too sorry for our "miserable dog." And we wished that we had never brought Happy home from Dajia. Without Happy, our days would have been less happy and unhappy. But that was fine, wasn’t it?

We went on keeping Happy with us for weeks. Then, Jean told me that she had called her parents talking about Happy's problem.

"Is it possible for such a sick dog to return to her hometown?" I asked, a glimmer of hope coming into my mind.

"They said Sister Gui-Ying (the distant relative) accepted her home."

"Great! Strike while the iron's hot. Let's take action this weekend." I meant to take Happy back to Dajia on Sunday afternoon, but Jean’s parents and brother visited us on Friday evening. My brother-in-law drove a car so they could take Happy back easily.

Tony was filled with hope this time. I told him that Happy's hometown was the most suitable place for her because she was allowed to run freely in the vast expanse of pastureland over there.

"Pappy," Tony asked me, "could we bring Happy back here when her skin disease is completely healed?"

"Well, let’s see . . ." I turned to my wife, "What do YOU think?"

"Why not?" Jean said, without a moment's hesitation. "The one condition is that her skin disease be completely healed."

"Well, it might be much better for Happy to live in Dajia," I concluded. And I said to Tony, "When we visit your grandpa and grandma in Dajia, we can go and see Happy as well."

The fact of the matter is Happy passed away one and a half months after she returned to her birthplace. None of us knows the real cause of her death. But I can assure you that Tony has no longer asked us for a pet dog since then.

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In addition to the above story, I would like to show you how fast the time has flown. Jean and I took Tony out of Shui Changliu when he was three. He finished his kindergarten at six, and graduated from the elementary school at twelve. Six years later, he graduated from senior high and started to study at university. Having studying there for the third year, he is now twenty-one years old.

As you can see, Tony is growing tall, dark, and handsome. He's got a girlfriend, whom he met when he was a freshman. Jean and I regarded the relationship between our son and his girlfriend as "puppy love" but, to our surprise, they've been going steady for almost three years.

A couple of weeks ago, Tony and his girlfriend came back from the university with a little dog. I was so surprised that I asked them, "Where did you get it?"

"It was given to us by one of the guards at the school, who had just gotten some baby dogs," they said.

"Can you afford the time and space to take care of it?" I thought of their limited dwelling places and their situation as students.

"It's she that asked for it," Tony replied. "I've been trying to talk her out of raising pet dogs. I said a tiny puppy might cause big troubles for us, but she wouldn't listen."



2010年6月3日 星期四

寫春聯

----- by Liang Jin-Lian (梁金連) and published on Nov. 13, 1989 in Qun-Sheng Daily (群聲日報); the first (main) part of this article was earlier published in the school magazine Tou-Shang Qingnian (投商青年) on May 15, 1988.

那些年,客居大甲,住公家宿舍,過年到了,很少貼春年。只有一次,在妻的慫恿下,自編一聯曰:「平凡人住小屋裡,美麗夢織大海邊。」是新婚不久,只求紀實兼抒情,不太在意四三句法及平仄的傳統。

大前年,初到投商任教,賃屋草湖,地名雖美,但公寓式建築,張貼春聯不甚方便,過年到了,並沒有將「草湖」二字編入春聯,貼於門上。

前年年底搬家到霧峰,房子是買的,妻說:「遷新居,迎新年,總得貼副春聯吧!我喜歡你自己編、自己寫的。」天曉得我多久沒練毛筆字了,況且唸英文系以來,極少浸淫詩詞。想以地名入對,索斷枯腸,方得一聯曰:「心隨霧靄吟詩意,目向峰巒寫畫情。」

去年年底,當妻再提春聯的事,我靈機一動:「青山有霧方為貴,綠水無峰那算奇?」仍然寫霧峰。想想,還是自勉一番吧:「柔情白霧今猶在,壯志青峰永不移。」覺得「白霧」對「青峰」,無論平仄、詞意都很配,乃又成:「晨昏白霧飄窗畔,遠近青峰映戶中。」此聯相當平實,若要誇張,不妨來個:「飄窗白霧千杯酒,映戶青峰萬種茶」,顯得豪爽、浪漫多了。

但繼而一想:「霧裡賞花花若舞,峰中聽雨雨如歌」也很令我陶醉。(至少比「霧裡看花花更美,峰中觀月月更明」更像那回事。)

那麼,今年的春聯我貼哪一副呢?覺得寫聯自勉,立意雖佳,卻多少「硬」了一點。而千酒萬茶,並非我的個性。採用了「花舞雨歌」的視覺效果,算是折中。

問題是,房子買在霧峰,可能一住數十載,我能年年以「霧峰」為題,編出一副副自個兒喜歡的對聯嗎?

*** 備忘錄 ***

同事蕭淑貞老師曾遞給我一張紙條,上面寫著:「和梁金連師『霧峰聯』戲作.........」豈是戲作?實為精品,特抄錄於斯,以為長久保存。

一、香霧迷濛連峰翠,
  翠峰迤邐鎖霧香。

二、霧裡看花,自在飛花輕似夢,
  峰中聽雨,無邊絲雨細如愁。

三、雲霧緜緜隨雨密,
  碧峰淡淡帶煙浮。

四、臨風玉樹出塵霧,
  帶雨梨花隈靈峰。

五、霧裡山河閒夢遠,
  峰中歲月故情多。

六、淡素芳菲薄似霧,
  孤高器宇傲如峰。

            ------- 1989.11.13 刊於 群聲日報 第10版

2010年6月2日 星期三

Xin Biaoqian (New Labels)

#2010-0602

Wode buluoge yuan you liuge "biaoqian" -- ling yizhong shuofa shi "wenzhang fenlei": (1) Lizhi Pian, (2) Tu-Wen (pictures + stories), (3) Xiaopin Shouzha (prose), (4) Muguzi de Xiaoshuo (fiction), (5) Jiu Zuo (reminders of my young years), yiji (6) Zhiyan-Pianyu (pinyin bijibu).

Weile yongxu jingying zhibian, jintian wo tebie tianjiale sige "yuyanbie": (1) Shuangyu, (2) Zhongwen, (3) Yingwen, (4) Pinyin. Zheme yilai, wo jiu keyi wei meiyijian daxiaobuyi, xingzhi butong de zuopin chongxin fenlei, bingqie tongshi tieshang liangge yishang de biaoqian le.

Wo turan faxian, chule xiaoshuo (fiction), sanwen (prose) zhiwai, wo buneng dudu yiloule shige (poetry) han xiju (drama). Muqian jiran hai meiyou xie xiju (drama) de dongxi, zhishao, weile rongna yixie kan-qilai xiang "poetry" de dongxi, wo yinggai liji zenglie "Xinling zhi Ge" zhe yi xiang.


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2010年6月1日 星期二

Buluoge (My Personal Blog)

#2010-0601B

Dacong Muqinjie de getian (5 yue 10 ri) qi, wo kaishi renzhende jingying buluoge -- Mookoo's Home (木咕子的家).

Na zhiqian, wo zai Yahoo ye kaichuangle yige "Muguzi de Jia," danshi wo faxian, tie shangqu de yingwen zuopin, bing buneng yi "yingwen moshi" zuo shidangde chengxian. Yudao mei hang zuihou gai huanhang de yingwen danzi, zong bei dangzuo zhongwen zici yiban, suibian chaikai (bing wei anzhao yinjie lai chaikai) liecheng shang-xia liang hang. Yinci, wo buzai jixu jingying nage buluoge.

Buzhi guole duo jiu, wo juede haishi xuyao youge zhuanshude yuandi, zuowei zhangtie xin-jiu tu-wen zuopin, jilu shengming licheng ji shenghuo diandi zhiyong. Zhongyu, zai Google de yemian-shang, wo zhengshi kaiqile zhege mingcheng wanquan xiangtong de buluoge.

Wo xiwang, suizhe suiyue wuqingde xiaoshi, zhe buluoge-li, que ke qingchu kanjian yuelai-yueduo de "chucun" -- er meiyijian chucun, dui rihoude wo eryan, dou shi mizuzhengui de huiyi a!


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花海寫生:共 3 組

#2010-0601A

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May each of our days be so happy and beautiful!




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藍天下,花海中,你注目哪一株生命?
是否你也聽見那隱約中的風之低吟?





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Good friends are good friends. [See right]

[See below]
"If I were a lion," I told my better half, "I would swallow you up!"



2010年5月30日 星期日

愛是什麼

---- by 帆影 (Fan Ying, one of my previously used pseudonyms) and published in Taiwan Fu-Kan (台灣副刊) on Mar. 25, 1974.

● 有回我寫信問一位正在寫羅曼史的同學:「她和我,哪個重要?請說真心話。」那位同學回信說:「關於你問我的問題,就好比考我一斤和一尺哪個大,你自己作答吧。它倆哪個大?」

● 有回我查字典的「愛」字,發現註解是「喜歡」。我在學生辭典裡翻出「喜歡」,解釋作「快樂」,想查一下「快樂」,卻找了半天只找到「快」字和「樂」字。

● 有回老師告訴我:「李商隱的『春蠶到死絲方盡,蠟炬成灰淚始乾,......』表明愛的本質;白居易:『......在天願作比翼鳥,在地願為連理枝......』說出了愛所含的精神,『天長地久有時盡,此恨綿綿無絕期......』道出了愛的時間性,至於『生命固可貴,愛情價更高......』更點出愛的價值。」無奈我還是不懂。「能說得更具體些嗎?」我問。老師凝思片刻,說道:「這和『智力』是什麼一樣,眾說紛紜不一。」

------ 1974.3.25 刊於 台灣副刊

2010年5月29日 星期六

First Part of My Family Tale

#2010-0529

First Part of My Family Tale
-- by Mookoo Liang in April, 2001



When dad and I arrived at our "old house," a little cottage located half way up the mountain, both he and I were somewhat excited. I had not come back here in a few months, so I was longing to see it again. But dad visited this place almost every day; working on the land surrounding the cottage was just the same old familiar routine for him. Could he be excited too?

Perhaps he was not really excited. Yet obviously he was very pleased about my idea (and act!) of visiting the old cottage again that afternoon. When I said I missed our "old home" very much and asked if he would like to go together with me, dad said "Let's go!" immediately.

Dad couldn't care more for the old cottage, the land surrounding it, and all the plants he grew over there. His fondness for those things was expressed in his eyes, and I noticed it while we both were walking across one of the terraced fields.

The terraced fields were originally created for growing rice. Now rice became rather cheap, and dad was over seventy --- too old to grow rice. These level fields were also used for growing bananas, grapefruits, and betel nuts, just like some sloping fields on the hillside.

We walked and talked in a leisurely way. Dad suddenly stopped, pointed to a banana tree with some brown leaves, and sighed, "It's very odd that recently banana trees are dying one after another. That must be a new type of disease that the chemicals fail to deal with."

He explained to me why he had to substitute something else for the diseased bananas. If he planted a new banana in the very same spot where a banana had been killed by disease, that new tree would be infected and die soon. "Mostly I would put a betel nut in the place," dad added. "I'm getting old and weak. Growing betel nuts involves less labor."

For quite a few moments neither dad nor I spoke. I thought of the fact that, in order to have a better job, all his children had already moved out of this mountainous area. Even dad and mom lived in a new house several kilometers away from this single and solitary cottage, so that they could obtain, as his children suggested, some next-door neighbors.

Standing in the shade of trees, I watched dad cutting off brown banana leaves. He was adept at using a banana knife, which he usually hid somewhere in the field after work. And right in the middle of the field, dad had previously set up a garden sprinkler --- by tying a revolving tap at the top of a bamboo pole. He walked toward the pole and moved it a little further to water more betel nut seedlings. His blue shirt was partly wet now, as I could see, with more sweat than water.

I looked around for anything else that I would have missed so much. The rugged mountains with different kinds of trees gave me a vivid picture, so familiar and so special, so amazing and so meaningful. Such a landscape could be seen from various "standpoints." To get more "good views," I moved around and looked in different directions. As I turned to the west, I noticed that the sun was sinking. Is the daytime always shorter in the mountains? I looked at dad again. He had stopped working and was walking toward me.

"Dad," I called out. "Why not take a rest?"

"No problem."

"You must have spent a lot of time working here. In these and those fields, fruit trees are tall and weeds are few. How could you make it, dad? You have even set up such a perfect piping system!"

"Oh! No water, no crops. Like vegetables, some fruit trees need special care." Sometimes dad spoke just in a typical fathers' tone.

"But you should be a retired farmer," I reminded. "You might as well come and exercise here, but don't work too hard."

In fact, all my brothers and I asked dad and mom not to work too hard. Being their children, we had grown up, we had got married, and we had our own children. It was time for us to support and wait upon our parents. However, we younger generations lived far apart in different cities. Only during holidays could we return to pay a visit to them.

"Does mom come here often?" I asked dad.

"Well, she hasn't come in a couple of days. She will come more often after new vegetables are planted here."

Mom was also a hard-working type of person. She had two vegetable gardens, one next to the old cottage and the other behind the new house where dad and mom were living. She would take care of them in turns. She did not follow us that afternoon, so dad said he would water the vegetables before leaving the cottage.

Dad carefully sprinkled water on each vegetable plot. It was getting dark, and yet dad refused any of my help that would possibly spoil what I was wearing. I was in a white shirt, black trousers and leather shoes that afternoon. Having expected to see my birthplace again, I was not ready to work at all. I was embarrassed, though, to be an onlooker all afternoon.

As we were leaving the cottage, dad told me that he would call all his four sons together on a "good day" so that the parents and children could discuss how to divide his land into four "equal shares."

His plan was: first study the quality of each part of his land; then let a gentle and better slope be combined with inconvenient paddy fields while a steep slope be joined with better rice fields; finally, let all the sons draw lots to decide which share to take. "But the cottage should not be divided," dad said. "It had better go with the piece of land that it is on." I heard and understood dad's plan, yet it made me sentimental.

Is dad so old that he can't help thinking about how to distribute his property? Dad has been living in this mountainous area all his life; is he leaving for somewhere else soon? How can mom live without dad? Or how can dad live by himself? . . . Such silly questions occurred to me one after another. I was puzzled. Then I felt sorry, and somewhat angry!

I didn't want to think about those lousy things. Only philosophers and/or religious people can "grasp" the full significance of life and death. I am a son of farmers. How can I indulge in such difficult subjects? I told dad that mom had wanted us to go home early, and that at that moment she might have dinner prepared. Dad and I hurried back to my car, which I previously parked near the foot of the mountain.



I was woken by a telephone call, still feeling a little sleepy because I had sat up late the previous night. It was Janet, my second sister, who was coming from her place 30 kilometers away.

"You are in your Spring Recess, aren't you?" she asked.

"Yes. So you're most welcome to come!"

"Oh, I mean, if you are available, I'll drop in on you. If you're busy, I'll go with my family. They are leaving for the museum, to see bingmayong."

Of course I told her to come, not only her but also her family being very welcome. In fact, Janet and her family rarely visited us. It's my wife and I that went to them more often, because their house was just halfway between our parents' house and ours. Whenever mom gave me vegetables that she had picked from her gardens, she would make me take some to Janet on my way home.

Janet said she was not very interested in seeing bingmayong, that is, a big group of "soldier-and-horse sculptures" of Qin Dynasty style. She would rather come and chat with my wife and me while her husband and her sons were visiting the National Science Museum.

"Only I am at home," I said. "Maybe I'll stay alone for two more days during the Spring Recess." I told Janet that my wife had gone to her parents and that Tony, my only son, had not come back from the campus yet. But my personal plan for this one-week vacation remained a secret.

I had always wanted to write a story about dad and mom. And I started writing it when Spring Recess came. That's why I had not gone with my wife to see her parents. That's why I sat up late the night before Janet gave me a surprising "morning call." I was quite busy. But Janet was coming at the right time, wasn't she? She could definitely help me recall those "good old days" when she and I lived with our parents in the mountains.

I was sleepy no more. Before hanging up, I cheerfully said, "Please come, Janet. I'll be happy to see you soon." I did not reveal my writing project, though.

♫♪

Talking about childhood, both Janet and I had a strong feeling: Our older generations had lived in very poor conditions, and in those years not all children were as lucky and happy as we were.

Ah Zung, for example, was not a lucky boy. Although he had a "no problem" life when he was small, he lost his daddy at the age of 11. Two years later, when he was just 13, his mommy died, too. The situation became very bad after that. He was a frail teenager. He had to depend on his elder brothers.

Ah Zung had two elder brothers, not to mention his sisters. All of his brothers and sisters were already married, but how could a teenage boy get a wife without money or anything like that? Ah Zung didn't care about marriage; instead, he missed his parents very much.

Ah Zung's daddy and mommy used to be pioneers, coming from their faraway hometown to this sparsely populated mountain area. Then they worked mostly as woodcutters; they also opened up some virgin soil. When they passed away, they left their sons a piece of land on the mountainside, which was not formally allotted yet.

Land was important to every peasant; therefore, a senior relative of theirs came to Ah Zung and his 2nd brother's dwelling, to help divide the land for the three sons. (At that time, Ah Zung's 1st brother had built his own house in the neighboring village, where he lived with his family.) The senior relative carefully checked the size and the quality of the land, divided it into parts, and then allocated them by making the three sons draw lots to decide which share to take.

The senior said, "Let Ah Zung live with his 2nd brother and 2nd sister-in-law, sharing this cottage (which was not the cottage mentioned above). As for the cow, it has been working for you all these years; it should not be killed and divided. I strongly recommend that the cow belong to Ah Zung, who is still single, so that he can sell it for getting a wife in the future."

Aha, so the boy got the cow! His extra special gift! It's ridiculous that every morning, when the sun had just risen from behind the eastern mountain, the thin and small teenage boy Ah Zung should lead his "personal property" (or his pet?) to an open field, where the big "working capital" grazed by itself.

In the slack season, being a "cowboy" out in the open air could be fairly enjoyable. While grazing his big pet, Ah Zung was allowed to do whatever he liked: to lie on the grass and watch the floating clouds, to collect wild flowers or beautiful butterflies, or to climb up a tree and imagine that he was a knight fighting on horseback.

And yet, in the busy season, which seemed ten times as long as the slack season, Ah Zung had lots of farm work to do in addition to the so-called "soft job" of grazing a cow. Ah Zung was a good boy. He listened to his brother and sister-in-law. He worked very, very hard, whether he was up the hill or down the rice field.

Ah Zung started to learn how to plow the rice field at the age of 12. The plow he used was an old-fashioned farming tool, with a long wooden handle that was even higher than Ah Zung's height.

Ah Zung raised his right hand overhead to hold the handle, and he held the hemp rope in his left hand to control the cow ahead of the plow. When the animal, the plow, and he reached the edge of the field (after making a furrow), he would make a U-turn for another furrow. It was an embarrassing moment for Ah Zung then. Because he was so short and small, he had to lift up the plow with his "shoulder" instead of his hands to turn the plow around.

The question is: were his brother and sister-in-law satisfied? No, they were not very pleased with him. They regarded him as an extra heavy burden, and they were always complaining about what he had done.

Poor Ah Zung! He never had a chance to go to school. Most of the time he worked either on the hillside or in the paddy field. And he even worked all by himself, as his 2nd brother had to work for other families to "make money."

Ah Zung was too young to go "making money." He could only work on his brother's or his own land, to earn his "three meals a day" (not to mention "new clothes" for the Chinese New Year). In reality, all the harvest from Ah Zung's land was "kept" by his 2nd brother, who once said, "The harvest? As you can see, the harvest was so limited. Do you think I have cashed in on him?"

As he had no watch, he could just tell the time by watching the sun. One cloudy day, he returned home from the field at about two o'clock in the afternoon. He felt hungry, but didn't know if it was time for lunch. (By the way, his 2nd brother was then "making money" somewhere else. When doing so, he did not usually come home for lunch.)

It happened that that very noon Ah Zung's 2nd sister-in-law cooked later than usual. When she saw Ah Zung coming home for lunch, she became angry, and yelled, "Don't you know I was also busy in the morning? You, lazybones; you're good for nothing! You know nothing but eat!"

How upset Ah Zung was! But he said nothing in response. Now his daddy and mommy had died and his 2nd brother and sister-in-law had taken their place. There was a Chinese saying: Zhangxiong ru fu; zhangsao ru mu. (Your eldest brother is like your father; eldest sister-in-law, mother.) Ah Zung was unable to make a living himself then, anyway.

♫♫

Usually I visit my dad and mom once a month, but last month I went back to see them twice, on the first and second weekends in March.

I've got a teaching job at a high school. I'm busy on weekdays and I spend almost every Sunday in the church, and that's why I failed to visit my parents (and my parents-in-law) more often. Of course I have another excuse; that is, my three younger brothers will usually take turns visiting dad and mom in our hometown.

It was Friday, if my memory serves me, that I was informed that Uncle Xi had died. Dad asked me on the phone if I could return to attend the funeral that was going to be held nine days later.

"It'll be Sunday," said dad, with sort of emphasis.

"Oh, I will. I'll certainly go to his funeral. Uncle Xi used to be so kind to us!" I told dad that I should be present in such an important ceremony, whether it is on the weekend or not.

A few years earlier, I took a day off in order to attend the funeral of dad's 2nd brother; and when dad's 2nd sister-in-law passed away afterwards, I asked for leave, too. How could I neglect to show my respect for Uncle Xi, dad's eldest brother?

In fact, I went back to my parents the following day. Uncle Xi's death must have caused some discomfort to dad, I thought. And I knew Uncle Xi probably as well as dad did. He was a well-known good man. Even mom said he was our da-en-ren, a kind and generous benefactor who had saved us from suffering.

"In those miserable years," mom said, roughly referring to the five years before and six or seven years after she was married to dad. "We lived in abject poverty. If Uncle Xi had not offered us so much help, your dad would not have succeeded in establishing such a family."

Mom made a pause and then began telling a story, which I guess all her children had already heard more than once:


Three years had passed since dad started living with his 2nd brother and sister-in-law. Dad was 16 then. His days were just work, work, and work! Yet he owned no savings.

One day, dad was very sick, lying painfully on the bed. Uncle Xi, his 1st brother, happened to come and saw him lying still in the bedroom. The 1st brother asked the 2nd what was happening to the 3rd. The 2nd answered that he had no idea how the 3rd could pretend to be ill like that.

When the 1st brother touched the 3rd on the forehead, he was shocked to learn that this youngest had so high a fever. The 1st said something to the 2nd. The 2nd replied loudly. The 1st said something more, trying to hide his anxiety or something, just in a louder voice. The 2nd replied even more loudly. Then, both of them lost their temper and became really infuriated. The sudden sharp quarrel between the two "elders" was so terrible that the youngest was scared half to death!

"Okay, since you don't care for Ah Zung at all, I'll take him with me from now on." Uncle Xi said with great determination.

"It's up to you!" said dad's 2nd brother. "You say I don't care, so I don't care any more."


As far as I know, dad was reluctant to go with his eldest brother at first. It was rumored that Uncle Xi had been a "tough guy" on the farm, meaning that he was as strong as a superman while working. Some people saw him working from dawn to noon (or from noon to dusk) without taking a break to drink water. Then, at the end of the job, he drank a large pot of water at a time.

Dad was afraid to turn to Uncle Xi, thinking that he might be going from bad to worse. "I did have an idea," dad said to me. "I thought of escaping from home!"

"What did you do, then?" I asked curiously.

"I picked up some clothes, and got ready to wander far from home."

"If you had done so," mom interrupted, laughing at dad, "you would have become the most pitiful tramp in the world. What a shame that you've got no sense of direction!"

"Oh, mom! There's no way that dad would possibly become a tramp!" I said. "Dad has always been a good man! A good man is blessed by God."


It was around 9 o'clock on Sunday morning. The funeral of Uncle Xi had just started, with so many "friends and relatives" attending the ceremony.

Like many other relatives, my mom, my brothers, and I got there shortly before the ceremony started. But dad had arrived at the place an hour earlier. He was one of the most important persons that day. He was supposed to "nail" the coffin during the service, because he was Uncle Xi's only brother still living.

"It would be very hard for dad to do the nailing," my youngest brother said in a soft voice.

"Well, dad will only hammer a nail symbolically," another of my brothers explained. "Somebody else will do the rest --- to fasten the cover of the coffin!"

The funeral service was held according to the Chinese folk belief. In addition to loud and noisy "lamentation music" played by a brass band, from time to time the "wailing & crying" could be heard through a loudspeaker. It was a special group of singers that were hired to perform the crying. I didn't like that, and neither did my brothers.

In the middle of the service, all the "friends and relatives" were invited to go forward, four by four, to the picture of Uncle Xi. As we were guided, we burned some joss sticks, offered the meat and fruit and wine as sacrifices, and at the same time we kowtowed to the picture.

Suddenly I remembered I had been converted. Is it appropriate for a Christian to do those kinds of things? Is it possible for me to refuse to carry out their religious ceremony on that occasion? If I didn't follow their rules, what did I come for? What would my family (especially dad and mom) think of me? . . . Once again, many a silly question occurred to me. I was puzzled. And I felt very sorry!

My younger brothers asked me if I really believed in an afterlife. I said I had to keep praying to the Lord my God. Perhaps Jesus Christ would let me know more about it someday.

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My second sister Janet had been chatting with me in my house. We talked about all kinds of things: from jobs to interests and hobbies, from old places to new surroundings, from our nuclear families to dad and mom and many others that we both know.

It was interesting for the brother and sister to have such a free-and-easy talk in the morning. Especially I enjoyed it very much, because I had kept working hard on my creative writing since the Spring Recess. When Janet called me by phone, asking if I was available that very morning, I decided that I would take a rest. I needed to relax for a while, indeed.

"How is your Spring Recess?" Janet asked.

"Oh, quite busy."

"Busy? What have you been doing?"

"Writing a family story."

I regretted letting out the news about my writing project. Actually, I had not expected to reveal it so soon --- at the very beginning of our conversation! Now that a slip of the tongue completely changed my mind, I thought of the saying: "honesty is the best policy," and I told Janet everything about my plan for the "vacation."

"Ge!" (As I am her elder brother, Janet does not call me by name; she always calls me ge or ge-ge, meaning "elder brother" in Chinese.) Janet said, "Aren't you in your Spring Recess now? Why not take a rest?"

"No problem."

"You must have spent a lot of time working on this short story . . . My goodness! You've already written more than 20 pages, but you don't even know how to make your short story short!" With a particular smile, she added, "Don't be a workaholic, Ge."

"Oh! 'No pains, no gains.' Have you heard of that?" I smiled back. "And 'practice makes perfect.' I need to get some more practice!"

At times I would speak just like a ge-ge. Or in a typical teachers' tone! For many years I'd been teaching English, a foreign language to me as well as my students; yet I found it very difficult to overcome the different ways of thinking between English and my mother tongue. That's why I told Janet I needed to get more practice.

By "I needed more practice," I possibly meant either (1) I should lengthen my short story and make it a novel, so as to get more writing practice, or (2) I should be able to make my short story even shorter, after getting more writing practice, or (3) both of above, or (4) none of above.

It was as if I were plowing deep in my professional field again. I asked myself: Which one really matters, language or notion? Can you actually (or significantly) separate form/container from matter/content? Can you really (or completely) separate a "tool" from its "function"? . . . These were some of the silly questions that came to my mind. Interesting as language it, it always seems too simple or too complicated for me to use when I want to define something further.

I was woken by Janet's question:

"Ge, what did you tell about in the story?"

"Oh! Mostly about dad," I said. "And I mentioned dad's brothers as well."

"Didn't you tell about mom?" Janet said, "She is not only active but also talkative. She's quite special, isn't she?"

I couldn't agree more. Telling about mom's childhood would be more interesting! Mom was also born in a poor family. Her father, about 20 years older than her mother, also passed away when she was 13. Her mother, the 2nd (or 3rd) wife of her father, had to support the family by cooking or working for others.

For a long period of time, mom and her 2nd sister lived with their "old papa" at home while their mother was cooking for a faraway family. (Their 1st sister was married, living somewhere else.) Perhaps due to the distance, their mother rarely came home. So they had little money. And every time mom was sent to get something on credit or to buy a very small bag of rice in cash, she felt so embarrassed that she would try to hide what she got when she was walking home.

One day, something very bad and sad happened. Mom and her sister found no rice to cook and they had no money to buy anything for their old and sick papa to eat. They . . . they became thieves --- digging sweet potatoes out of somebody's garden. They quickly took the stolen potatoes home. They put them into the empty rice bowl; but, in no more than 2 minutes, they took them out and hid them under the bed. Then they became so frightened that they kept changing the hiding place.

"Did grandpa find out about that?" Janet asked me.

"No. It's hard to imagine what would have happened if he had learned about it."

Among all our grandparents, only mom's father could read and write. He taught classical Chinese language at a si-shu, a type of "private school" in the past. He passed down several old books and a photograph. (I've seen the photograph myself, and I've always been curious about him.)

"Where is that gentleman now?"
"Impossible to know!"


"Where was dad's 1st brother going?"
"Who knows?"


"Where is my son Tony?"
"He's still in his university, but he'll be back home soon."


"Where is Janet's husband?"
"He's visiting the National Science Museum, together with his children."


"Where are bingmayong shown?"
"Oh, don't be silly any more. May the Lord be with you."  <#>



2010年5月28日 星期五

樹之高、遠、美(共 4 張)

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樹好像在比賽,
看誰長得高!

不知他們今年幾歲,
老還是不老?

只曉得如果我走過
省議會(現已改名立法院中部辦公室
後山,
這些生命體
離我住的地方很近。

真的很近!
----就在我心裡。



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While the above picture was taken in the nearby Memorial Park of Taiwan Provincial Assembly, this photo (see left) was brought back from afar ---- palm trees in the sunset, by The Dead Sea in Holy Land.

椰影夕陽下
--- Jerry 攝於 死海 岸邊








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楊桃樹 開花了!花藏枝枒間,仍逃不出我的眼!
Have you seen such beautiful flowers? They will turn into fruits
and we'll call them "star fruits" -- sweet plus a little sour!


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瞧!這是真正的「老榦發新枝」----樹齡數百年,甚至上千年
也不死的「橄欖樹」。翻閱聖經,你多少能懂得它的價值。
They are called "olive trees." Maybe you will refer to The Bible
 for more information about this kind of tree.


2010年5月27日 星期四

Wode Tuixiu Shenghuo

#2010-0527

Zai guo 10 fenzhong, wo hui kaiche jie xiaopengyou qu. Zhe shi wo shangban gongzuo de yi bufen.

Zicong jinnian eryuefen qi, wo zai Shen Yage de "quanshi gongzuo" (mei zhou 5 tian ban, mei tian shangban 8 xiaoshi) gaiwei jianchai xingzhi de "part-time job" yilai, wode shenghuo youle jidade zhuanbian -- biande zizai xuduo, ye gengjia meihao le.

Laopo shuo, wo gen ta dou ying dada ganxie (bing zanmei) Shangdi. Ruo bushi Shangdi si women tebiede enhui, wo han ling-yiban qineng xiangshou wuyou-wulu de tuixiu shenghuo?

Laopo muqiande shenghuo "guilu zhong, you xuexi". Er wo, youkong jiu papa shan, shaishai taiyang; zai jiali ze kankan shu, xiexie dongxi; chuci-zhiwai, [mei zhou zhishao liangri] dao Shen Yage jianchai, ye suanshi hen you yiyi de yizhong "tui er buxiu" a!

Suoyi, wo dui muqiande shenghuo jiwei manyi. Wo zhende hen ganxie Shangdi.


- - -

2010年5月26日 星期三

無題(二首)

----- by 金浪 (Jin-Lang, one of my previously used pseudonyms ) and published on May 15, 1987 in the school magazine Tou-Shang Qingnian (投商青年)

《無題 #01》

夕陽 防風林 海邊
妳的腳印比我的
小 卻同樣的多

書房 望月樓 山巔
我的思念濃過
霧 還比冬夜長

唉!
是誰使海風變甜?
是誰使山鳥不歌?


《無題 #02》


往事
已被撕下
的日子層層層層裹住
藏於心海
深處

舊情凝固
於一度行雲流水的筆心
遂難譜出
綺麗的夢
如詩

憶無意
忘無心
奈何潮汐落了又起
想過朝朝
夕夕

筆心既死
我身為啥活?
只好望眼潮汐起落中
看穿春夏
秋冬
 
---- 1987.5.15 刊於 投商青年 第24期